My Hope Is That Standing Still Let's Me See All The Ways I've Changed

Photo credit: Tyler Babin

Photo credit: Tyler Babin

Do you know that you have to pay an exorbitant amount to have your passport expedited? I do, because last September I had a little over 3 weeks to figure out how I was getting to Geneva. 

From the minute the email came in asking if I wanted to give a speech in Switzerland I haven't been home for more than a few weeks at a time.

I got my passport picture taken on the same day the email came in and the next day I was standing on line at the post office asking them to confirm, for the fifth time, that I would be getting my passport in the mail within two weeks. And three weeks later I was on an overnight, direct flight to Geneva. 

Standing there, filling out forms that were going to take me to Europe for the first time ever, I stood in awe. I was going to do this. I'd gotten myself to this point. At the top of the year I'd eaten a grape and made a wish to travel more and here it was in ways I couldn't even imagine. 

Once, months later, i was sitting across from my boyfriend, with cards between us when I told him, "You're my favorite moment of 2016...and I went to Switzerland." 

He laughed because for as corny as I am, he always laughs. But I was being honest, for as much as I fell in love with Geneva's fairytale-esque streets, I fell in love with him more. 

He's creative and intelligent and my best friend.   

And who I am because of these last few months is someone I want to become better acquainted with.

This is why I'm starting this space, why I'm committing to standing still and writing more. It's why I'm going to give myself time to breathe and catch up with my life.

I've lived so much, so presently, in the last 10 months and I'm ready to take stock of it all. 

I hope you'll follow along.